I heard these words today and I paused for a minute to let them sit with me for a while:
"ANYTHING DEAD COMING BACK TO LIFE HURTS."......
Those words were from the movie Beloved with Oprah Winfrey, Kimberly Elise, Danny Glover, and Thandie Newton. It's one of my favorite movies because of the powerful words spoken in it. I know first hand and personally what those words mean (to me). At first, I thought this is a negative statement because of two words: Dead and hurts. But really this statement is chock full of power, resurrection, determination and passion. You've got to really want it bad to come back to life from death. That means that you are arising from the ashes, you are dead man's bones with supernatural air fanning you back together. This isn't something you do on your own. That is what you call power from the universe responding to someone's warrior-like spirit! They want to______ again (fill in the blank)! It is a call that I want to respond to.
Whenever anyone makes a decision for change, there's going to be pain.
I have been dead in spirit. Dead in hope for my future. I stopped believing that great things were going to happen in my life. There are people out there who really get this low. These are the private thoughts that are seldom shared with others. But I want to be alive again! I want to be free of this numbness that hopelessness brings. I want to be better than I was before. I used to be bold and courageous because I once stood for something. I was a member of a campus ministry where I consistently put myself in situations where I would be deemed "uncool," but I did those things anyway. I stood up on city buses and invited the entire bus to my church and to do personal bible studies. I stood up in school food courts and talked to everyone about what I believed in and how it would benefit their lives. I was radical. I sacrificed the parties, promiscuity, and drugs and alcohol to be about something bigger than myself. I'm not trying to toot my own horn but I need to remind myself of those things so I can remember who I still am. I was driven by love and passion. I want it back!
I have made that call to the universe to bring me back to life. I did it today. It's already hurting because I'm choosing to do the opposite of what has kept me down for too long. I have to welcome this pain because I know that I will be richly rewarded in the end. I may lose some things along the way that I didn't anticipate losing...but such is life. It is called pruning. Pruning is necessary because it benefits the whole person. And life often calls for pruning of things that no longer serve you. We all know what those things are in our own lives.
So, to you I say that 2015 is another opportunity. May we all embrace what it has to offer.
Sincerely,
Her
